Time . .

Where does it go? I am baffled that January is almost over . . .and although I have a great birthday weekend with the girls planned for Hot Springs next weekend, it makes me sad that this month is already over and so much has happened ...



We are finishing the first month of 2009.



We inaugurated our newest FIRST African American President.



My baby turned 6.



I got addicted to Bejeweled 2 AND Balloon Invasion! LOL



I also got addicted to and finished Seasons 1, 2, 3 and almost 4 of the show "24" (and that is actually only in the last week and a half.)



My kids are whizzing through their school!



I am going to be 34 in 8 days . . .



It just blows my mind . . .really . . .I sometimes feel so isolated in my life and everything that is going on around me and it makes me feel selfish. I have so many friends and loved ones that are struggling daily to survive (physically and mentally) and I really don't have it all that bad at all. It is easier to wallow in self pity (over the littlest things) and really lose sight of what and who is important. I am not exactly sure where that puts me in the scheme of things, but I do know that (are you ready for this . . .)



. . .this too shall pass . . .(I am pretty sure I didn't say it even ONCE yesterday! LOL)

Wondering . .

If anyone even reads this, or if I should head back over to xanga . . .of course I really just blog for myself, but at this point I have several blogs and probably just need to stick with one or two. I feel like I am neglecting this one, but this is where I like to blog pictures and things going on with my family, and I haven't had much of that lately . . .hmmm . . .we'll see . . .

Random Update . . .

Sorry that I have no pictures to post, but my camera got messed up over Thanksgiving and Best Buy has yet to return it to me! ;-)

So far the new year has been pretty good to me . . .I have had some good girl time, my baby turned 6, I am going to be 34 in a few weeks, and everyone in my family is healthy and happy!

Feeling blessed as of right now . . .hopefully 'this too shall NOT pass' . . . hee hee

I realize that if we are 100% honest with ourselves, everyone in this world is jacked up (except my dad) and I just feel sorry for those people that don't have someone that they can be 'real' with. I think it is rare and very special to find that person, that 'other half' (not to be confused with soul mate) that allows you to be yourself.

And why is it that we feel like we need someone else to 'allow' us to be ourselves?? Why don't we just allow ourselves?? I will tell you . . .I think it is because we can't handle our 'real' selves by our self. I think if you put me and my real self in a room by ourselves we would either self destruct or go crazy. . .which explains why there are so many people in this world that are crazy and self destructing!! I know that sometimes the 'masks' that we would wear (and still wear around some people) make us feel safe and they are familiar. They also protect us from those people who are so scared of their 'real selves' that they are critical and judgemental about us being real, but in the long run, they hinder us from being what we are capable of being.

So now my dilemma is this . . .how to teach my children to be real and comfortable with their real selves without making them open to judgement from others. Maybe the point is to make them comfortable enough with who they are that the judgement just rolls off their backs like water . . .OR have them find out that their real selves are not about themselves at all, but rather about their Creator who makes them realize what their true selves are about . . .

. . .and so on that note . . . I leave you here to go 'home school' my children, not just reading, writing and arithmetic, but about . . . LIFE . . .

A new year . . .a blank slate . . .