In keeping with theme . . .

Truthful Thursday . . . since technically it IS Thursday.

• Truthfully I have been staying up too late again.
• Truthfully I am at a good place right now.
• Truthfully I have some great friends that love and support me (and some that I want to hit with Menu's occasionally)
• Truthfully I have really opened up my mind to a lot of different things this year, some good, some bad, but I have also realized a lot about myself in the process.
• Truthfully I want to be in the middle of everything, but left alone. . .(yeah, I can't explain it either)
• Truthfully I wish I could give my kids a better Christmas this year, but at the same time I want them to realize what Christmas really is about, what better way than to have nothing else to do but talk about it?? lol
• Truthfully I don't deserve how great my family is to me. . . My mom and dad, my sister and her husband . . .They watch my kids, feed them and look out for me. I get teary eyed when I think about it.
• Truthfully it was a little weird sending out Christmas cards this year with a picture of just me and the kids. (I didn't send very many, just seemed not good timing I guess).
• Truthfully, blogging again is nice . . .I've missed it.

More later.

Okay . . .

Here it goes. . .

I am divorced. As of December 2nd, it was final. I moved out in May, and didn't rush into anything. I have peace about it, and stand by my decision.

I don't want to hear "I'm so sorry" . . .You don't know my situation.

I don't want to hear "Congratulations" . .because no matter how bad you think it was or wasn't, that is still 14 years of my life that is over.

I don't want to go out and celebrate it, because I don't feel like it is something that should be celebrated.

I don't want to have to explain it to everyone 800 different times, and re-live it over and over again. . . I am divorced, that is it. It didn't work out between us (and even though that sounds trite, you will not find me trash talking the father of my children).

I look forward to blogging again on a regular basis, I have missed it and I think it might have missed me a little too!

Since today would have typically (and since it is only 11:30 pm, it is still technically) a Manic Monday, I will proceed in that fashion!!

Well, I am still homeschooling the kids in the mornings and working part time Mon-Thurs from 2-6:30 at the local chiropractic office. My sister watches the kids on Monday's, my mom watches them Tuesday's and Wednesday's and my mother in law (can't bring myself to call her my ex mother in law, she means too much to me to do that) watches them on Thursdays. They are all very supportive of me working part time and have been so helpful and loving to me and my kids! I enjoy my job, but it has been crazy because I have been working full time for the last three weeks. The only other woman that worked there with me quit quite suddenly and left us high and dry . . .My boss is amazing though and we made it through. We have hired another lady and she seems to be doing fine so far. I have realized though that I am not a good teacher, I want people to get it as fast as I do, and understand it as quickly.

I just taught a CPR class to the local canoe club and that was fun! A great group of people and I am excited about maybe joining them on some of their adventures! I am going to post some random pictures of the last few months to catch you up to speed. . . Enjoy!

The kids and I on Halloween, dressed as football/baseball players!

Ethan just being . .well . . . Ethan! (I can't believe that he is going to be 7 next month!)

Garrett loved rock climbing, but I think he enjoyed rappelling much more!

Madison had a great time at Lincoln Lake with the homeschool group learning to rappel, rock climb and even got in a little bit of kayaking!!

So . . .

It's been awhile since I have written . . .I think I am ready to explain why. . . (but I reserve the right to change my mind at any time I so choose.)

Oh, wait . . First of all, HAPPY THANKSGIVING!! I have much to be thankful for:

• 3 beautiful children (that I currently want to beat)
• an amazing, supportive and loving family
• friends (both old and new) that listen to me, love me and make me laugh
• Sonic ice (if you haven't tried it, don't knock it)
• My Lord that loves me unconditionally (I might feel a need to say this one twice)
• my Arbonne consultant (I love their product!)
• not having cable (although I miss Football, UFC and The Discovery Channel)
• my super nintendo (I love OLD SCHOOL video games)
• my air popper (for the best popcorn EVER!)
• since I said that . . Butter and Salt too!
• wood heat (I am loving my wood stove)
• my job and a great boss
• music (it fits every mood I am in!)
• and I was right . . My Lord . . .I so need to cling to Him more!

So anyway . . .I am going to wait on my reasons for not blogging as to not take away from being Thankful right now in this moment!

HUGS TO ALL!

My life...

Baptist . . .

So today was my first Sunday back to church in quite some time. I had been wanting to go back for a while, but was really feeling 'blocked' for many reasons. Thankfully the kids jumped on board and we did it together!! We attended "First Baptist of Prairie Grove", which was where I was going when I first moved here, but due to some issues I had with others in the church, I quit.
I had some reserves because of the "Baptist" label, but I was actually very pleasantly surprised.

Let me just tell you . . .

• The worship music was updated, (although I do love hymns).
• The atmosphere was relaxed and comfortable.
• There were the perfect amount of people, not so few you feel like an obvious guest, but not so many you get lost in the shuffle.
• The kids loved Children's Church.
• It was nice to see some familiar faces.
  

Now, let me say a little something about the 'sermon': (which was VERY interesting to me, and not typical, even for this church, as they are in the middle of a 'sermon series')
These are some of the things said, and people quoted today
(It was on "Jesus Among Other Gods")

• "Coulda, Woulda, Shoulda, Buddha" (pronounced correctly)
• Ravi Zacharias was quoted.
• Jesus Christ was quoted. (no brainer)
• Buddha was quoted.
  
• GK Chesterton was quoted.
• "nirvana" was talked about
  
• Nirvana(and I mean the band)

And some great points were made. I like the kind of service that is educational instead of hell and damnation. A double bonus?? We did NOT sing "Just as I am" as the closing song!

P.S. We will be going back. . .

Backtracking . .

Apparently, it is too overwhelming to think about blogging about everything that I have missed so far. . .so starting Monday I will start fresh! Looking forward to doing this again! ;-)

Behind . . .again . . .

. . . Story of my life.

Mostly I read other peoples blogs and think "they are so funny", "they are so smart", and I don't even compare, so why bother? But then I remember that I do this for me, so it shouldn't matter (but it does). Ugh.

Here are the things that I need to blog about:

• My trip to Detroit
• My sisters progress on the new house
• the end of ball season
• taking my first on line class
• Dad's Surprise 60th birthday
• 4th of July
• 5th of July (with some explanation)
• Giving swim lessons

Wow . . I need to get busy!